43 Year Old with Schizophrenia Persevering
According to the National Institutes of Health, paranoid schizophrenia is a "mental illness that involves false beliefs of being persecuted or plotted against." Symptoms can include social isolation, feeling tense, suspicious or guarded, having grandiose or jealous delusions, or auditory hallucinations.
"Cedric" isn't his real name. He is 43, lives in Georgia, and reads this column on my "Disabilities by Daniel J. Vance" Facebook page. In a telephone interview, he said, "When I was in junior high, they diagnosed me with depression. A while later I was diagnosed with schizophrenia. I was a loner and attempted suicide."
During one difficult period in life, he "wouldn't make (verbal) sense to others," he said. "I didn't want to repeat anything I said because I thought if I could do that all the problems I was having would go away. I ended up using all the average words quickly, such as the and was. After that, I began saying only obscure words, such as kangaroo. I had a lot of pressure coming up with new words."
In terms of paranoia, he believed the universe was set up to ruin him and that people could read his mind. However, he has never heard voices, and still doesn't. Ten years ago, after being hospitalized several times for relatively long stretches, he had an epiphany that changed his life. He realized his world wouldn't end if he had "bad" thoughts.
In terms of his personal life today, he worries about being stigmatized because of mental illness. For example, he debates internally how long he should wait before telling a woman. He said, "I won't do it off the bat because I'm afraid that will scare her away."
He said his biggest struggle has been over-thinking. For instance, he said, "I'll be walking down the street and go to the left, and think I should have gone to the right. I second guess myself all the time about whether I've done the right thing. Sometimes I think I have autism. I just don't seem able to see the big picture. I'm in my own little world. When talking with people, I often don't explain where I'm coming from and they aren't able to understand me."
He advised people with schizophrenia: "You can get through it. Where you are at now doesn't have to be that way forever."
Print This Article
LittleGiantFudge.com and Palmer Bus Service make this column possible.
Daniel J. Vance is a licensed professional counselor and national certified counselor from Vernon Center, Minn. His weekly newspaper column Disabilities has been published in more than 260 newspapers.
Daniel J. Vance may be reached at www.danieljvance.com
Placer County News HeadlinesIndigenous Peoples Days in Rocklin March 19-22Rocklin, CA--Sierra College's Native American Club, the New Legacy Committee, the Sierra College Press and Heyday Books will cosponsor a four-day event: Indigenous Peoples Days during its Yomen Weda or Spring Equinox Festival
Beth Gaines Announces Re-Election BidROSEVILLE- Small business owner and State Assemblywoman Beth Gaines (R-Roseville) announced her bid for re-election to California's Sixth Assembly District.
Roseville Company Partners in $39 Million Apartment CommunityBased in Roseville, USA Properties Fund Inc. debuted the Mayfair Court - a 93-unit apartment community at 65 McCreery Avenue in San Jose on March 6.
Placer County Water Agency Meets Stewardship CommitmentsManaging California's complex water storage and delivery system is a never-ending balancing act between supply, demand, and environmental considerations, especially during a severe water shortage.
Safeway and Albertsons Announce Merger AgreementSafeway Inc. (NYSE: SWY) and Albertsons announced today a definitive agreement under which AB Acquisition LLC ("AB Acquisition") will acquire all outstanding shares of Safeway
Roseville Crime Report Digest (3-6-14)The Roseville Police Department crime report digest March 6, 2014.
Plane Crash in Placer County UpdateA plane crash approximately 3-4 miles south by south east of the Truckee Airport. The decedent is 55 year old Darla Farnell.
Placer SPCA Seeks 2014 Hero Awards NominationsRoseville, CA - Placer SPCA is seeking nominations for the 2014 Hero Awards, to be presented at the 13th annual Funny Bones Comedy and Awards Night on Friday, April 25.
AAA Funds Supports Roseville Fire Museum and Roseville Firefighters CharityThe AAA Roseville South Branch Office is providing $2,500 each to the Roseville Fire Museum and the Roseville Firefighters Charity.
Rocklin Crime Report Digest (3-6-14)The Rocklin Police Department's weekly crime report digest for the period of February 25, 2014 to March 3, 2014.
Roseville Physician Elected to TMPG Chair of the BoardChris Palkowski, MD, has been elected chair of the board of directors of The Permanente Medical Group (TPMG), the governing board of the largest medical group in the nation with 8,000 physicians serving 3.4 million
6 Arrested in Roseville Burglary Ring CaseJames Eisner, Valiri Ryan, and Brook Heston of Roseville were among six individuals arrested following a month-long investigation of a commercial burglary ring.